I discovered a pile of blue fuzz.
And his new red scissors.
She wept.
䷔䷲
bite through
wood shackles
no regrowth
cerulean ears
GRIZZLY PEAR
I discovered a pile of blue fuzz.
And his new red scissors.
She wept.
䷔䷲
bite through
wood shackles
no regrowth
cerulean ears
I quit drawing twenty years ago because of the anxiety about the fidelity between the image and reality.
I would feel a panic attack in my throat when the image went off script and I knew I wasn’t going to spend the hours to make it perfect.
A few years ago I had accepted the hard fact that I would never draw again, like I will never take the time become literate in Chinese.
Last November, I started sketching again because I wanted to see more drawings on Post and Tara Trudel encouraged us to share our work.
It became a drawing habit by quietly following the 30 day challenge on Wendy MacNaughton’s Substack.
Now I’m drawing cause I enjoy it.
I know I’ve hit the flow when a deep breath exhales from my lungs. These 10 minute hand sketches have become a daily meditation.
They’re not perfect. They’re not even great (look at the all amazing hands on Pinterest!) But they’re mine and I’m an indulgent judge when I’m not worried about what other people might think.
Like my kids, I’ve learned to proudly marvel at the stuff that comes from my own hand. Imperfections and all.
We spent the a day at the New Children’s Museum in San Diego, filled with cool installation pieces. The highlight is Whammock! by Toshiko Horiuchi MacAdam.
Last time we went was before the pandemic, when the boy was 18 months old. He’s now her age then. He took to this piece like a fish in water. Life took a long pause but kept moving regardless.
he messed around
on and off
run around
knock the bowl of the table
rice and corian
everywhere
mama yelling
boy crying
no snacks for a week!
sister got her popsicle
he announced
我今天要一个popsicle或者看姐姐有一个popsicle!
(Today, I wanted a popsicle, or watch sister have a popsicle!)
grandma
cooking lunch,
watching a drama,
charging the ipad
the long cord swept
a salt shaker
off the counter
no snacks for grandma!
䷮䷁
sluggish suffocation
golden carriage
stingy stop
A few weeks ago, I got into a conversation about zines and d.w. sent me a couple! I printed out the emails with the kids to make the books.
A single sheet of paper, a few folds, one cut, and voila! an eight page book.
The kids delayed dinner so they could color their new zines.
He noticed a blue pouch in the medicine cabinet.
“hey! that’s our old blue bag.”
I grabbed it.
“what’s in the bag!?”
I giggled.
“what’s in it?“
I ran to the kitchen.
“They want to see what’s in the pouch!”
they gave chase!
“give us the bag!”
Mama calmly said,
“That’s daddy’s medicine, put the pouch away.”
they asked,
“what’s in the bag?”
“There’s nothing to see.”
(it’s why there’s only two of them)
䷒䷵
earth arrive
lake approach
spring award
Last week, we got a wooden mannequin at Ikea.
He lay straight in a plastic tube.
The kids called him RIP Mr. Little Wooden Guy.
Mama took him out of the cylindrical coffin.
He’s a stiff little fellow; his hips don’t rotate.
The kids danced with him around the house.
I bought someone to draw.
A figure who wouldn’t run away.
The kids gave him a little headband.
But I wanted someone who can do a full range of poses.
A mannequin who could do the Eight Brocades.
The kids hinted that Mr. Little Wooden Guy would love to have a friend.
FLASH
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hood
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dash
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eyes
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head
FLASH
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scruffy
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pines
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syncopate
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Rainbow
FLASH
䷲䷁
shock and mud
The boy’s craft table had a ribbon of markers in holders of toilet paper rolls. Mama glued them together in groups of four and six. It’s a nice modular system that the kids decorated with markers.
he ran into the kitchen without underwear
Mama told me to grab one from the dryer
he ran to the laundry
Mama told me to watch him
Make sure he doesn’t pull out all the clothes!
M-A-M-A 我每天是 careful 的!
(M-A-M-A I’m careful every day!)
䷱䷠
yellow ears
gold handles
happy tripod