GRIZZLY PEAR

written snapshots

Category: 5 Word Piece

  • another month of 52’s (five-pack ten+10 bits for a creative practice+self help junky)

    I’m now distant enough from these pieces they’ve become surprises to revisit. I should to accelerate the release of these five-packs, but things are about to crazy at work. If I fall further behind, that will let them age longer as old surprises to uncover.

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    2/6 Inktober 52 (2024), week 19

    world
    floating
    in
    a
    jar

    I had a rough time with the composition, and I need to take a month to practice the sign painting script to hit right. Even so, I’m happy with this final version, even if it took a little computer magic to make it work.

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    2/7 Inktober 52 (2022), week 9

    uhoh
    them
    mops
    gots
    buckets

    In retrospect, I the sign painted UH-OH would have worked better, but in the moment I pushed the cursive in the finished versions. I’m looking for a good pointed brush outside of my Pentel pens, but it will take a few tries to get right. That’s gonna be an expensive exercise since it requires buying individual brushes.

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    1/25 Inktober 52 (2025), week 4

    aquarius
    poor
    ganymede
    mixing
    nectar

    I’ve been starting my mornings by practicing the my script of the month. Pushing the finished piece with the hue function gave it a nice watery feel, by changing the colors. My main practice inks are yellow and pink because they are quite dry (so they don’t heavily on cheap paper).

    BTW the original Aquarius myth is sad, if not traumatic. Them Greeks told things real. Same for the Bible, even if we normally gloss over those parts.

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    2/1 Inktober 52 (2025), week 5

    we’re all in this zoo

    As always, there are so many little decisions that must be made after the overall concept. Again, the practice sheet came to the rescue, adding a little extra noise to give the composition presence.

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    2/8 Inktober 52 (2025), week 6

    a light in the swamp

    The top two versions are tweaks of the same scan. All versions were done as black/grey ink on white paper and then inverted in GIMP. After that, it’s about how hard to push the dials.

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    As much as I’d prefer to do it all perfectly on the page, the computer is an integral part of my process. These discussions about process are my penance for relying so much on the box.

    Similar to the writing seminar in undergrad, I suspect my most influential class in grad school was the digital photography course with Frank White. As an architectural photographer, he unapologetically embraced the computer as part of the process.

    Of course, the process is a lot harder if you don’t start with good inputs, but the final piece is the final piece. Excuses about what happened along the way don’t matter for the deliverable.

    That’s how I do it here. I’m not above the occasional process photo to flashthat I can do most of it in real life. I’m not hiding anything, whether it came from the pen or was pushed in the computer.

    It just is.

    Cya next time!

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    PS—10 Bits For a Creative Practice

    I wrote this as a response to someone’s post in early 2024, but the records have been drowned in the endless feed of content. I liked this enough to save it as a draft and it’s finally time to reshare it.

    1. Show up every day.
    2. Jump in! FFS just start.
    3. Study the greats.
    4. Celebrate your peers.
    5. Don’t freak out about bad work.
    6. Tension is the trigger to breathe. Relax.
    7. If you can’t do it slow you can’t do it fast. No rush.
    8. Pivot freely.
    9. If the crop feels wrong, the crop IS wrong. (Trust your gut)—an aphorism I learned in that photography class.The concept of trusting default triggers has served me well over the decades for many things beyond images.
    10. Do it again tomorrow!

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    PPS—Self Help Junky

    Another response to someone else (exactly who lost in the endless feed).

    As a former self-help junky, I’m a big fan of the anti-self-help movement. Of course, a moderate approach is generally best in life, but if you could only pick path I’d recommend skipping self-help.

    But I’m moderating this reactionary stance after reading Kenny Werner’s Effortless Mastery.

    I wonder if the question for judging a book is “how” versus “what”. Don’t invest in books that tell you what to do (or avoid). But there might be value in books that explore how to get somewhere that you already want to reach.

    In that spirit, here is a quartet of self help books that might be of use:

    1. Fail-Safe Investing, Harry Browne (great life-finance advice, though do your own research on portfolio composition because the specifics are dated)
    2. So Great they Can’t Ignore You, Cal Newport (good compilation of career advice for someone entering the workforce)
    3. Several Short Sentences about Writing, Veryln Klinkenborg (this book goes beyond writing to life, even if a bastardized version of his advice has infected LinkedIn with punchy shallow drivel.)
    4. Effortless Mastery, Kenny Werner (a slow approach to practice, nominally about music but it applies to anything. It’s a distant second best to Tai Chi training at a good school.)

    All that said, the Bhagavad Gita would trump all of these books, even if it’s profane to place this text next to self-help fare. May the gods forgive me.

    But always be ready to ignore anything that you read in these books. Never confuse the author’s confidence in their advice for it’s applicability to your wild and wooly reality.

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    PPPS—Black to Yellow

    For giggles I took a brush pen with black in and put in a cartridge with Lamy Mango Yellow. The first sheet shows the transition from pure black (marked with the cyan slash on the second line) to yellow.

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    Interestingly, when I went back for more practice, there was still some more black that came out of the brush.

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    The next morning I made the “aquarius” 5WP (above), which had more black sneaking out (every other line was made with that black-mango ink, the other lines were made with the former mango pen, now filled with a pinkish ink).

    Funny how these things play. The joy of the real world!

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  • three and two and three make (five-pack eight+Scratch 3.0+ODDADA)

    Before end of the year, I pushed out a few 5WP’s there were trapped in my phone. And starting with the new year, I’ve jumped into the “Poetry Haul” challenge by ARTSTACK.

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    1/7

    dawn
    flickers
    through
    stucco
    tracts

    Morning sun is always inspiring, even through banal suburban neighborhoods on the way to work.

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    1/8

    divine
    subconscious
    confirmation
    bias
    machine

    Using the I Ching and Tarot, I occasionally indulge in randomness for self insight, even though I don’t subscribe to new age woo. I treat these practices as public-domain versions of Brian Eno and Peter Schmidt’s “Oblique Strategies“.

    Even without the woo, divination must be treated with the proper respect. Consulting the unpredictable is a powerful way to recontextualize the moment. It’s also the perfect way to tell yourself whatever you subconsciously wanted to hear, a dangerous game.

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    1/9

    gently
    ready
    to
    explode
    anytime

    As far as I know, I’m well liked as a Project Manager. If that is true, it’s because I try to be gentle and kind with my consultants. On the other hand, I also make it clear that we have standards which need to be met.

    It’s a weird dichotomy, partly from my own personality. I’m really nice until I suddenly flip out. That second part ain’t great, but I’ve been getting better at avoiding rabid foaming mouth moments as I continue to grow up.

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    1/10

    parenting is slowly letting go,
    first yourself, then the child

    I’m certain older parents have a more perceptive opinion of this wild aspect of being human. But this is what I got as a dad of two kiddos.

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    1/11

    acrimony
    broken
    phones
    shattered
    hearts

    lingering
    silence
    chill
    moonlight
    pearl

    greatest
    time
    lost
    through
    memory

    Artstack started posting a poetry challenge sharing ten words for a week. Add five extra words and we got a triptych of 5WPs!

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    With my recent focus on dip pen copperplate and straight brush calligraphy, the Pilot Parallels have been neglected.

    I could feel the rust in my fingers while running these Foundational Hand letters. But I’m super happy with how the brush has progressed, so I guess it was a worthy tradeoff.

    I’ve kept my interest in calligraphy so far by keeping things fresh. Normally, I don’t have a ton of patience for refinement. Maybe one day I’ll hyper-focus on greatness at one detail. In the meantime, I’m happy with getting pretty good at something before tackling another challenge.

    Cya next time!

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    PS—Scratch 3.0, MIT Lifelong Kindergarten Lab, 2019

    My friend’s boy was taking a class in Scratch. I thought, this might be interesting. And a weekend in 2021 disappeared.

    Scratch is a magnificent simple block programming system designed for kids. It was easy to jump into and my daughter and I were having fun drawing and programming a sprawling game with multiple minigames.

    That might not be the right way to create a long term habit, but it got our feet wet.

    With our (still incomplete game) I took over the reins of the programming, letting her do the drawings. The next step was to unleash her on the computer, so I borrowed a couple of books for a more structured training that lasted a month before we lost interest.

    Inadvertently I had stumbled into “paired programming”, where two programmers share a computer. This novel technique is said to increase collaboration and concentration. For a few weeks, it turned out to be surprisingly effective. We collaborated and learned together, pushing ideas back and forth and a live example of by stumbling through the modern instruction manual—YouTube.

    The part that really makes Scratch tick is its social aspect. Given the dark side of Facebook and Twitter (now “X”), it is not something I compliment lightly. Every Scratch program allows you to “see inside” giving you a resource to cut through frustration.

    But like many moments in childhood, the early interest faded quickly. We pushed out a couple small games and that was that. The boy is now old enough to play with Scratch, but the little rascal prefers sneaking off to play games.

    Still, it’s a great resource, kudos to MIT, even if we haven’t used it to its full potential. Yet.

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    PPS—ODDADA, Sven Ahlgrimm, Mathilde Hoffmann, Bastian Clausdorff, 2024

    I found out about this game on Friday with this excellent review on Good Game Lobby. Slept on it overnight, and bought it on Saturday. They played it all afternoon. He also played it most of Sunday until we dragged away from the computer to read books.

    Obviously, this is “composing” on “easy” mode, but twenty songs in and we’re still having fun with more variety to explore.

    The sweet spot for a computer game “enjoyable but not addictive”. I’ve spent too many hours on Civilization which is why I’ve avoided that narcotic after the first version. Hopefully sandbox games like this will find a proper balance.

    Six months later, I have to admit that we rarely play this game. There is only so many things to do, and composing music isn’t their thing. That said, he saw me looking up ODDADA on the computer and asked to play it after dinner. So he still likes it.

    Still highly recommend.

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    PPPS-Practice

    1/16

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    PPPPS-Happy Trails

    In January, the IT pro at SPWD left for an awesome opportunity. She happened to be in town so I ran a card over to her. While graphing it out, I ended up with a second card, which I just gave to the guy who instituted the GIS system at our airport, apparently one of the most sophisticated airport systems in the nation.

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  • old 52’s (five-pack seven+Bhagavad Gita)

    Catching up with old Inktober52 challenges from 2024.

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    1/20 Inktober 52 (2024), week 22

    duck
    paddling
    into
    murky
    secrets

    ducks
    paddle
    over
    dark
    secrets

    I uploaded the one on top, but was not happy with how it looked. I messed around a little in GIMP, adding a duo-tone background and then changing the opacity to multiply. Now I’m really happy with both versions!

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    1/23 Inktober 52 (2024), week 27

    free to pluck the
    stars

    This was inspired by Ann Collin’s post with collage artist Duane Toops, a beautiful pairing of poetry and collage. Check it out!

    Their collaboration was bouncing in my head as I tried to fall back asleep while also mentally imaging the Inktober52 prompt “free”. This line slid into my half asleep mind and I snapped awake.

    The original graph was black ink on white paper. In the computer, I inverted the color, pulled “stars” way up into the sky, and added a little brown to emphasize the earthiness of the starting line.

    Even though I don’t prefer relying upon the computer, I do it when it makes sense. At the very least, rightsizing the white space around conventional pieces. And sometimes it’s nice to envision a piece and hit it out of the box.

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    1/28 Inktober 52 (2023), week 42

    plump
    witches
    prefer
    organic
    children

    This one turned out to be wicked hard. Even though I envisioned both of these concepts fairly easily, they both took multiple attempts and I’m not happy with any of them.

    Sometimes you just throw your hands up and say “this is all I got with today’s skillz!” And move on.

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    1/29 Inktober 52 (2023), week 51

     

    the
    elf
    sang
    soft
    slow

    I’m still figuring out how to use that music nib. This was inspired by a glorious piece by totemspoems on Instagram.

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    2/3 Inktober 52 (2021), week 30

     

     

    ink
    more
    black
    than
    bile

    A lot of times I’m using greys, washes, or watercolor. It was fun to just use a pure black india ink.

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    At the start of February, I showed my wife some awesome calligraphraphers on Instagram. She was reasonably nice about my work too =).

    But we agreed that the borders was limiting the punch on the 5WPs.

    So they’re gone.

    As an architect, there are some perks to being married to another architect.

    Cya next time!

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    PS-Bhagavad Gita

    I spent the month of April 2021 reading and listening to all the books in the library about the Bhagavad Gita. I thought about doing a series of separate posts, but I’m not sure I have that much to say, so listicle time!

    Let’s start with a free copy, translated by Sir Edwin Arnold. As with all public domain books, the language is dated, but nothing beyond the King James Version of the Bible. It doesn’t come with commentaries, which are essential for understanding what’s going on—especially for us from the West where Hinduism is an exotic oriental religion, but the price is right for a decent introduction to the Gita.

    I listened to Jack Hawley’s Bhagavad Gita, A Walkthrough for Westerners which is a translation where the commentary is mixed into the writing, resulting in a version that is three times as long as the original poem. It’s an interesting concept that reminds me of the Living Bible paraphrase of the Bible published in the 1970’s. But I was reading the original at the same time as listening to this book, so it felt strange to have Hawley’s parentheticals inserted into the flow of the text. And it was unsettling to never be sure what was textual and what was explanatory. I don’t think it’s a horrible idea, but I prefer the streamlined punch of the original.

    I also listened to Ram Dass’s book Paths to God which takes the opposite tack from Jack Hawley. This is a series of lectures nominally around the Gita, but really about Hinduism and spirituality in general. I first came across Ram Dass in the documentary Fierce Grace (as part of a double header with Winged Migration in a movie theater that was about to be demolished). I’ve always been skeptical about white dudes who are into eastern spirituality, but I could sense a good spirit in the film. One interesting aspect of this book is that Ram Dass effortlessly utilizes the language of the 60’s (freak, trip, etc) in a way that makes one understand how that vocabulary came about. Of course it has become a caricature through the intervening decades, but the body of language met a need that was lacking in standard English. In all, I really liked this book.

    The library has a straight audiobook reading of the Gita translated by Barbara Stoler-Miller. The reader, Jacob Needleman, has a copy of the audio posted on his own website. The free version online is of inferior audio quality to the version on Overdrive, but it is free.

    Eknath Easwaran has a popular translation, but he relies a bit too much on sanskrit terms which makes it hard to follow at times.

    When Love Comes to Light, by Richard Freeman & Mary Taylor is a two part book, with an extended ten chapter commentary of the Gita followed by a translation of the book in the second part. Having read and listened to a few books about the Gita, I’m at that point where I’m no longer a complete stranger to the work, but I am still such a novice I can’t really judge the quality of the commentary. Nothing seems out of line with what other people say about the Gita. One nice feature about this commentary is that it generally follows the flow of the Gita. While the essays don’t shy from pulling quotes from the entire book, the flow of the ten chapters covers the themes in the order that they were presented in the original. As such, it may be a good introduction to the Gita.

    The Great Work of Your Life: A Guide for the Journey to Your True Calling, by Stephen Cope is a self help book based around the Gita. Like any self help book it is digested in to four digestible “pillars”:

    1. Look to your Dharma
    2. Do it Full Out!
    3. Let Go of the Fruits
    4. Turn it Over to God.

    I enjoyed being introduced to the biographies of the great individuals who were discussed in the book, but the criticism on Amazon that the author never dealt with the the conundrum of familial obligations is absolutely on point. The Gita is all about following your duty, which is an easy concept if one has only one single overarching dharma. But what if you have multiple obligations? This book falls short for us normies. I understand why Cope streamlined the biographies to focus on their pursuits of their dharma, but this reduced applicability of these stories for our messy lives. I get that the greats are great because they are different, but if the author doesn’t draw a connection between their lives and our reality, then their biographies become irrelevant. As such, the book is simultaneously too long and too short.

    I read the Stephen Mitchell translation, which is in Modern English. Unfortunately I can’t remember anything about this translation. Stephen Mitchell has translated so many different texts, I’m always a little worried about whether he has the expertise to do it right whenever it comes to a specific book.

    I’ve ultimately settled on Laurie Patton’s translation. I enjoy her tight structure, capturing a poetic pithiness of the original that the other translations don’t. I read this after my initial explorations, so having some of the concepts telegraphed is not a problem.

    Given that I’ve read more about this text than any other text from the last twenty years you could say I dig the book. Its appeal to duty resonates with the cultural Confucianism of my upbringing and my intellect is tickled by the exotic foreign spirituality in the rest of the book.

    Naturally, the Gita has ended up in the top tier of wisdom literature that I would like to revisit for the rest of my life, along with the Daodejing, Analects, Havamal, Zhuangzi, and the book of Ecclesiastes.

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    PPS-Practice

    1/22

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  • 52ing into 2025 (five-pack six+Books that Matter: The Analects+Confucius: And the World He Created)

    Here are the last couple of Inktober 52’s from 2024 and the first three for the new year.

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    12/23 Inktober 52, week 51

    realities
    wrapped
    in
    the
    enigma

    I tried going with a square for this is play on “enigma wrapped in a riddle”. The corners felt awkward so I went to the old standby—a big circle.

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    12/30 Inktober 52, week 52

    zombies cross the finish line

    Always a little scary to give up control, letting gravity have a say.

    I’m not sure if outlining was better or worse. It makes it a bit cartoonish, less bloody.

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    1/4 Inktober 52, week 1

    quiet
    sunrise
    quells
    murky
    shades

    The pointed brush and copperplate cursive came together in “sunrise”. I’m unhappy with my dip pen copperplate—it needs a ton more practice to look good for these 5WP’s. But all that December work set me up for pretty good cursive with the pointed brush.

    So it worked out after all. Shouldn’t plan too much for these these creative meanderings. Just peek far enough to keep doing.

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    1/12 Inktober 52, week 2

    perky
    shrimp
    pound
    pearly
    xylophones

    After finding the big concept, one must still wrestle with a bunch of little decisions. It turned out the last slant was best.

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    1/18 Inktober 52, week 3

    tick tock
    yesterday
    transforms
    tomorrow

    I finally learned how to properly spell “tomorrow”.

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    I can’t believe we’re 8% through the year!

    Cya next time!

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    PS—Books that Matter: The Analects of Confucius, Robert Andre LaFleur, Great Courses, 2018

    This excellent audio course covered the Analects and its outgrowth in Chinese history. It provides a conceptual framework for reading the text as a series of conversations between the teacher and his students. LaFleur then covers key themes, such as filial piety and remonstrance, and finally closes with a discussion of Confucius’s long legacy in China and East Asia.

    After four years, it might be time to revisit this course. Like most Westerners, I have an affinity with quirky individualism of Daoism as a reaction against fundamentalist Christianity. However the ideas centering social relationships and mutual bonds as discussed in this lecture series are attractive, especially as our nation continues to rattle itself apart with irresponsible leaders and citizens.

    Beyond these lectures, just finding this course is a reminder of how much info is just out there. Here’s a free 12 hour lecture series! what else is hiding on Overdrive? And the library’s physical stacks? Add Kanopy.com and the publisher’s own streaming service? Finally podcasts and YouTube!

    I wonder what Confucius would say about drowning ourselves with information.

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    PPS-Confucius: And the World He Created, Dan Schulman, 2015

    This book was a good rejoinder to the Great Courses lecture series, which had taken a positive spin on the philosophy. This book focused on the real-world history of Confucianism, which was quite detrimental by the end of China’s imperial age.

    Such is the fate of any philosophy that becomes calcified. American Christianity’s obsession with being right has created an political religion that has forsaken Jesus’ true core of love. The ineffable concept of the dao became a collection of wild superstitions in religious Taoism. And the vision of a well ordered society metastasized into a harsh top-down hierarchy that perpetuated stagnation and cruelty.

    These loose philosophies started out kindly enough but lost their heart as they became systematized. Certainty killed the animating force that gave them life.

    An organized religion builds a magnificent intellectual edifice by losing the point. One must always be free to pick what works today and ignores that which is irrelevant to the moment.

    For that reason, I suspect Confucianism is making a comeback. With the destruction of the formal, governing, imperial ideology, the writings of Confucius and Mencius are available for a fresh rereading. It took two centuries of chaos in Asia to exorcise the old ghost of Confucianism. Master Kong is free to ascend again.

    Schulman notes in his epilogue that we are at a crossroads where Confucius can be used to help form an orderly rich society. Or maybe it becomes the bedrock for a new authoritarianism. Let’s just hope we don’t screw it up as badly as last time.

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    PPPS-Practice, red to salmon

    1/15

  • More #52’s (five-pack five+Analects of Confucius, translated by Robert Eno, 2015+Make More Art Flow Chart)

    Some more 5WP’s inspired by Inktober 52 prompts.

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    12/16 Inktober 52, week 50

    gingerbread
    home
    chicken
    running
    feet

    After the initial post, I thought it might be better with the gingerbread home inverted. But it just looks like a piece of toast.

    In the past few months, I’ve gone native with GIMP. Its UI is not as intuitive as what I remember from Photoshop, but I’m able to produce quickly on the program, at least for the limited work that I do with it. I presume going back to Adobe would now involve an uncomfortable learning curve.

    And yes, this piece is a reference to Baba Yega’s lovely home.

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    12/18 Inktober 52, week 32

    fang
    sour rain
    eerie sea

    This was partly inspired by the Fender logo, but it took a bit of finagling to get something that felt properly fangy. Even then, I had to add a bit of splatter to lock in the effect.

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    12/20 Inktober 52, week 30

    O
    blessed
    and
    cursed
    mutation

    There is a slight color shift in the four words because I was playing with the gradient effect by touching two Pilot Pens. Maybe I’ll spend a month really playing with that effect. Or maybe I just use watercolors.

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    12/21 Inktober 52, week 29

    summoned
    Hellboy
    to
    wash
    dishes

    Tried a couple versions of this poem but went with the mental image of Hellboy carefully soaping porcelain teacups. It was fun to learn how to draw an ellipse!

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    12/22 Inktober 52, week 25

    little
    folk
    abduct
    farm
    animals

    After the time cutting out a pile of A B U D C and T’s from mailers and brochures, I had to show off all five attempts.

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    I’m trying to write these in advance, but it’s hard to keep up with the calendar. Time marches inexorably forward.

    And commitments invariably multiply.

    The doc just prescribed a half hour of aerobics, 5 days a week. It’s going to take every self-help hack I’ve collected over forty-five years to develop a positive mindset about this new 150 minute weekly time suck.

    But I’ve been warned that heart drugs mean no more eating grapefruits.

    So I must run and jump.

    Cya next time!

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    PS—Analects of Confucius, translated by Robert Eno, 2015

    The internet is a wonderful place.

    When the pandemic hit, I finally started reading eastern philosophy. I can’t remember why I started with the Analects, but Robert Eno of the University of Indiana made it easy by freely sharing his translation of Confucius.

    The Analects are a mix of history and proverbs, and Eno greatly aids the reader with a two column format that runs the commentary directly adjacent to the text It’s a brilliant layout to insert to add historical context and explain pithy sayings without interrupting the flow of the original.

    I also enjoyed that Eno chose not to translate key words, such as ren, junzi, li, and dao. The transliteration allows these words to accrete their own meaning, separate from imperfect English analogues. Over time, these sounds become “real words” as you internalize this technical vocabulary.

    In terms of thought, I’m temperamentally conservative so I naturally get along with this book even if the philosophy eventually calcified into an oppressive ideology of empire.

    Confucius was merely trying to restore order in a dissolving society. These Analects are a collection of lively sayings, not a systematic philosophy. The flow is accessible, almost haphazard. This was a practical school, exploring the role of ritual, morality, and power in governance. As a bureaucrat, I feel an odd camaraderie with his students, through two and a half millennia from bamboo slats onto a printed PDF.

    Even if you’re not a government drone, it’s worth a read. Daoism is more popular in the West, but one’s appreciation of Lao Tzu and Chuang Tzu will be enriched by better having a conversation with their stuffier sibling, Master Kong.

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    PPS—I doubt Confucius was into flow charts, but I think he’d dig this, courtesy of Miep, who shared a flowchart which I loved. I tweaked my version to utilize the shapes that are used at my government job.

    • Rectangle = Process
    • Squiggly = Document
    • Diamond = Decision
    • Oval = Start/End/Conclusion
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  • A couple from the boy (five-pack four+Magic Puzzle Company)

    Some 5WP’s from that came from here and out there.

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    12/15

    floor
    slug
    clapping
    his
    feet

    When we eat, the boy wanders around the house. I wrote this after watching him mop the floor with his back and clapping his feet in the middle of dinner. The girl has always been well behaved at meals so I’m gonna chalk it up to genetics.

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    12/13

    dreamland
    dusk
    seeking
    the
    girl

    An early morning poem after waking up from a dream.

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    12/16

    metal
    tail
    chubby
    sky
    shark

    Next to the airport is a big shopping center. I’m always tickled by the tail fins gliding in the background by as jets prepare for takeoff while I’m parking the car to pick up oranges.

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    12/31/2024

    poetry
    pokes
    thru
    imperfect
    precision

    It started with the phrase “poetry is precision” but it felt too pat and wasn’t five words.

    I have no business making pronouncements on the nature of poetry. If I keep this up maybe this will feel prescient. Or just cringe. Tomorrow’s problem!

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    1/2/2025

    do dreams teach you stuff?

    A couple of weeks ago, the boy walked up as I was typing on the computer and asked an innocent question.

    Unfortunately my first attempt had a mistake. But it’s prettier.

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    I’ve been focusing on using a straight brush for this month.

    I’m not using a “real” standalone brush, but Pentel refillable brush pen. The price fluctuates wildly, but I’ve gotten them at around $8 for a pen (with two black cartridges). I refill the empty cartridges with whatever color I want. I’ve got three at home and one at the office.

    We also picked up a straight brush from Blick for Christmas. Maybe I’ll pull it out and have something deep to say about straight brush calligraphy by the end of the month. Ha!

    Cya next time!

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    PS–Magic Puzzle Company

    In spite of my fatherly brainwashing, my kids just aren’t into boardgames.

    But they did go through a jigsaw puzzle phase. A couple of years ago I found a puzzle at Goodwill priced at $12.99, when I’ve never seen a puzzle go for more than $2.99.

    That price sparked my curiosity so I looked it up on Amazon. It had good reviews, the box felt sturdy, and the art was undeniably cute. I bought it for the girl’s birthday.

    Bingo!

    I bought another one for my son’s birthday (this time new).

    Bingo, again!

    These offerings by Magic Puzzle Company are spectacular. Thick pieces, intricate art, creative cuts, damn near magical. Heads and tails better than Ravensburger puzzles (which are already significantly better than other brands normally found in thrift shops).

    So I’m giving it the highest possible recommendation. In a world where I can keep buying used puzzles at the library and thrift stores for two bucks a pop, I’ve purchased the entire Magic Puzzle Company catalog at $23 a piece.

    To add a slight literary valence (and to avoid being a complete shill) I’ll also recommend that y’all check out George Perec’s Life a User’s Manual. I often think about the puzzle maker in that novel while playing these puzzles. It’s high time that I revisit that epic.

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    PPS—Heal

    1/3

    are you going to heal the sink?
    yes, we need to fix it next week.
    I like to say heal—it’s like a person.

    From a conversation last year with the boy soon after we moved into this house.

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  • Catching up December (five-pack three+Ties*2)

    With the holidays, I’ve fallen behind on these compilations. We’ll see if I catch up or if life will keep me busy so that production just falls off in this new year. It’s gonna be a busy year at work, without adding any burdens from a self-imposed hobby schedule.

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    12/7 Inktober 52, week 49

    krampus
    tracks
    you
    year
    round

    I tried to create claustrophobia with Krampus spying through the caps in the words. Turns out that half-hiding the four words along the top was more effective.

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    12/11 Inktober 52, week 35

    loft nest of cruel fairies

    Made a loft out of “loft”. Unfortunately, I’ve totally forgotten how I created that creepy effect with “fairies”, maybe with a ruling pen?

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    12/12 Inktober 52, week 34

    ride clouds with 72 transformations

    Another homage to the Great Sage Equal to Heaven. I used to believe that I didn’t have a favorite didn’t have a superhero. When the boy was old enough to get into the Sun Wukong cartoons, I realized I did had one all along, decades after my mom read these stories to me as a boy. Soon after, I read the Journey to the West and fell in love with that crazy monkey even more.

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    12/14 Inktober 52, week 33

    pink dreams in a stormtrooper

    pink stormtrooper in a dream

    Stormtrooper was the word, but it played out in two different ways.

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    12/19 Inktober 52, week 31

    It’s just one tiny bean

    “Stormtrooper” and “Bean” are both unapologetically inspired by this essay by Michele Banks about the work of Christopher Wool. It’s is well worth a read.

    The variations (among several more that aren’t published) show that there is a whole world of additional decisions that follow the initial concept. Details upon details, all the way down.

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    After all the decisions, there is the final execution. Which is always a thrill and terror.

    Every time I get frustrated at a piece, I re-center by reminding myself that it’s a huge privilege to work on these drawings. I should savor these multiple bites at this apple. Is there any better use of time than making art?

    Here’s to more 5WP’s in ’25.

    Cya next time!

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    PS–Ties

    Architects have a weird relationship with ties. We’re artsy professionals.

    Look at the photos of any architecture website—we don’t wear ties. I never wore one in private practice. We’ll rock a sports coats for big meetings and some architects make a statement with a bow tie. But no ties.

    But things were a bit more formal in the State. As the low guy on the totem pole, it’s best to be overdressed for government meetings. So I kept a coat in a car (with two ties, to match whatever shirt I might be wearing).

    How about meetings where I’m not the low guy? In such a case, I like to signal west-coast casualness to keep folks at ease, but I’m still a government official. Last year, I finally solved the conundrum. I can just wear the tie, without the coat! With a tie, I’m taking the meeting seriously, but not I’m not full of myself.

    A good example would be consultant selection interviews. I don’t want to outshine the interviewees, but I want to acknowledge that this is a big deal for them.

    If I know I’m going to wear a tie that day, I’ll wear a long sleeved shirt, but in a pinch, a short sleeved shirt with a tie has a nice 50’s vibe to it. But wait! There’s more—the badge lanyard. At the State our employee ID card was functionally useless. So I never wore it except for meetings in other State buildings. In such a case I’m signaling that I’m “one of you” (versus the outside consultants or contractors).

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    PPS-Airport Dress Update

    With airport security, the badge lanyard went from bonus to required. Even then, which lanyard? These things are all branded! Currently I’ve settled for a LAS lanyard that was passed out at an all-hands meeting. I’d prefer a thinner lighter lanyard, but until I splurge on a UC Berkeley lanyard, it’s best to rep for the employer.

    More complicated is how to dress. For most folks that’s not a problem. Almost all of the airport dresses pretty much as we did at the State. But my boss comes from the East Coast. He’s always well dressed. Invariably better dressed than the top directors of this place! It’s a balancing act. As his subordinate, I don’t want to underdress my boss, but it feels weird to be overdressed to his bosses.

    Currently my compromise is that while I’m in the office I dress as I’ve always done (button down and slacks). But whenever I hit the terminals I tuck the shirt in and wear a sports coat. If I’m in a big meeting, I’ll wear a tie. Definitely when I’m meeting the public or when elected officials, and I’m still figuring out how to play it out when it comes to our internal leadership.

    So to that end, I finally bought a couple ties. First time in decades! I got tired of the old hand-me-downs with bland patterns and got a pair of simple navy blue ties (representing the color the new Harry Reid logo). With a sports coat in the car and another in the cubicle, I’m always ready to look formal.

    Of course, I’m is totally overthinking things, nobody else is wasting brain space on such questions. But overthinking is what architects do. So Walmart is $20 richer, and I’m the proud owner of two blue strips of cloth.

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    PPS-Blick Paper Play

    For Christmas we bought a ream of sulfite paper from Blick. I took a moment to compare it against an existing ream that we already have. The texture is the same so the only difference is a very subtle beige tint on the Blick paper that might have been washed out in the post processing.

    Still, it’s always fun to play with all the tools on one sheet.

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  • My own 5WP’s, (five-pack two+Reciprocal Paradox+1901 Modern Pen and Ink+Reactionary Classics)

    Here are five non-prompted 5WPs that popped up over the past few weeks. It’s a fun challenge to memorialize a moment using only five words and then make it pretty.

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    11/26

    bumping
    gnx
    stopped at yellow

    I had just hit 55mph on the highway when the light turned yellow. Even though I was vibing hard to the first track on Kendrick’s new album gnx, I slowed down and stopped.

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    12/5

    hangin’ out
    d. w.
    at T3

    On Thursday, my sister’s flight was delayed a couple of hours so I got a little extra time to hang out with them. That evening, my substack friend d.w. was flying out of town, so I hung out with him at the airport bar. It’s a big perk to join folks for their last few moments in Vegas.

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    palm
    of
    peach
    leaf
    flames

    We visited the grandparents after Thanksgiving. This popped up while helping the kids collect leaves and twigs to make a nest on the patio.

    12/6

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    12/9

    I want the crispy chicken

    (donut)

    We had fried chicken for Thanksgiving. A week later I bought four donuts from Randy’s Donuts (a chain entering the Vegas market). This was his choice for the first day.

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    12/10

    asleep we reach our souls

    I have no idea how this line popped into my head, but it was a perfect 5WP.

    On the first version, the boy typed the background text while testing a new ribbon for my typewriter. It doesn’t scan dark, but it’s a huge improvement over the twenty year-old ribbon. In undergrad, I didn’t use the computer for art or architecture work. When applying to grad school I bought a Remington Quiet-Riter so I scan in real typewritten text to emphasize my hand work. I got into almost all of the schools, so I guess they appreciated my devotion to this illusion.

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    A few weeks ago, I deleted all social media apps from my phone to detox from those random dopamine hits keep us constantly distracted. The only exception was YouTube, because it has become a second podcast player. In the void, YouTube started creeping up.

    I found a solution in ZenScreen, a simple free app that delays how long it takes before YouTube opens. If it’s important, I can wait 60 seconds. If not, I’ll lose patience and slip over to the podcast or music app.

    I don’t care about their tracking features, but the core delay feature works perfectly….though I’m not sure how long it will last. I find that most life-hacks are only effective for about six weeks before my monkey brain finds a workaround back to the juice.

    Cya next time!
    Justus

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    PS–Reciprocal Paradox

    As a Project Manager I try to cultivate a feeling of psychological safety with my design team. I hope this will draw out that “edge” from each individual on that team.

    But if I don’t sense that “edge”, I will judge the heck out of you as a professional.

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    PPS-1901 Modern Pen and Ink

    As a dude with money to purchase (and the time to read) a 123 year old book on pen and ink printings, I have more in common with the socialites depicted on these pages than the exhausted workers toiling in their slums.

    Privilege is a weird thing. In today’s chaos, it’s easy to feel that we’re the victims of our story, but every single person reading this has been gifted with a cornucopia of great things (such as a flat screen monitor/device integrated with an unimaginably cheap, powerful, and small supercomputer).

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    PPS-Reactionary Classics

    Earlier this year, academia hosted a plagiarism kerfuffle which has driven me deeper into my preference for “great books”. If nothing is guaranteed (and now likely laundered by AI), at least the classics have stood the test of time.

    Yes, these classics are plagiarized works themselves—bits and bobs accreted over decades until they were frozen for millennia. But the ones that have survived to the present were so damn good that generation after generation thought it was worthy to reproduce by hand.

    So there must be something there there? Right?

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  • a few #Inktober52’s (five-pack one+Social Media Indulgences)

    Having wrapped up the daily challenges of the October and November, I’m slowly playing through old weekly prompts from #Inktober52 along with random 5WP’s that pop in my head.

    It will take a few shots to find the right feel for these posts, but at the moment I’ll be posting a five-pack of 5WPs along with a hastily edited old blog draft that needs to be finally pushed into the wild.

    Here’s to new-old projects, starting on the last month of the year!

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    11/16—Inktober 52, week 46

    waffle
    water
    sugar
    flour
    egg

    My favorite book on bread baking is Tartine Book No. 3. Chad Robertson’s ambition is breathtaking. I am also fond of Ken Forkish’s Flour Water Salt Yeast, which a huge help when starting my sourdough journey.

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    11/23—Inktober 52, week 47

    buff sprites
    train
    petal bells

    The visual pun to make a dumbbell of words didn’t land perfectly, but it was greatly helped when I flipped “petal” to align with ” buff sprites”. For many attempts I kept “petals bells” oriented towards “train”, but it read as “train bells petal”. On the other hand, the letters clash if “bells” is flipped into alignment with the other three lines.

    But I don’t totally mind the orientation weirdness of “petal bell” because it emphasizes the rhyme pun of that pairing.

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    12/3—Inktober52, week 48

    modern
    cornucopia
    just add water

    My standard process with super-graphics:

    1. Sketch a concept with thumbnails.
    2. Warm up on previously failed sheets.
    3. Take a bunch of shots on “good” paper.
    4. Fill in the remaining four words of the 5WP in varying ways until I run out of patience/paper. (The thumbnail sketches never work full size, so I usually flail around for a few sheets before settling on a couple decent solutions.)
    5. Scan them in.
    6. A few days later (after the rush of the moment has cooled), I make final selections and complete the edits on the computer.

    BTW, I’m fond of this failed sheet which became the background for testing scripts.

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    12/4—Inktober52, week 36

    music
    casually
    diced
    my
    spleen

    Even though I already played with the visual concept of interlaced words on “boss” and “waffle”, there’s always more to explore—along with thymus and spleen, I also considered pancreas and kidneys.

    On a serious note, check out Nadia’s beautiful essay about music and healing.

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    12/5—Inktober 52, week 37

    great
    sage
    heaven’s
    equal
    tattoo

    My Chinese calligraphy is awful, but this prompt begs for bad Asian brushwork! Unlike my frustrations with an art I’ve never practiced, I had fun going brush-ish with the Pilot Parallel—it felt simultaneously of street-ish and asian-ish.

    I don’t have a tattoo, but if forced to pick something, I would adopt the bravado of this Monkey King’s self-granted title…maybe to compensate for the lack of such bravado in real life! Plus a hard recommend for the Journey to the West. It’s truly one of the four classics novels.

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    A full week after the official end of the challenges (and three weeks after actually finishing my paper graphs for the prompts) my brain has finally slowed down enough to let me practice without feeling a need to produce another 5WP every morning.

    As threatened over the last two months, I’m back to practicing Copperplate, learning to wrangle that flexible pointy nib and trying to avoid gigaton ink blobs after dipping the pen.

    It’s a simple meditative morning practice. I listen to a podcast while doing three lines of basic strokes and then fill a page in the sketchbook with whatever words that pop into my brain from that podcast.

    There are a couple of enticing project ideas the horizon, so I expect to crank up the machine again, but it’s nice to enjoy the downtime.

    Cya next time!

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    PS-Social Media Indulgences

    In June, I drafted this listicle of lists from various social media posts. I was trying to keep a monthly streak alive, but it never got published!

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    Purchases to celebrate a new job:

    • (Carlo) Scarpa, Complete Works
    • Magic Puzzle, Season 2
    • Magic Puzzle, Season 3
    • Journey to the West, volume 3 (of 4)
    • Sleeping by the Mississippi, Alec Soth
    • American Prospects, Joel Sternfeld

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    4 covers (book, album, movie, television series)

    Honorable Mentions

    • Album: Koln Concert (Keith Jarrett), Chicken and Dumplin’s (Bobby Timmons), Alive 2007 (Daft Punk), Giant Steps (John Coltrane)
    • Movie: Whisper of the Heart, Collateral
    • TV Show: Cowboy Bebop
    • Books: Invisible Cities (Italo Calvino), Labyrinths (Jorge Luis Borges), 40 Days in the Desert (Moebius)

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    Three short stories

    • “Three Septembers and a January”, Neil Gaiman with Shawn McManus
    • “Tlön, Uqbar, Orbis Tertius”, Jorge Luis Borges
    • the passage on the giant bird Peng, Zhuangzi

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    When in doubt

    • Bullet points are your friend.

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  • Callivember24, Week 5

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    11/25

    thrive
    where
    havoc
    crosses
    harmony

    I finished this piece ten days before prepping the scan for upload. Plenty of time to forget the exact wording before final edits in the computer. So I came up with “better” wording, dragging me back to the drawing board. I didn’t like the initial version (with the cursive harmony O) so I tried again with the heavy O.

    Two extra trips to the drawing board before remembering the original wording and realizing that the alternate version only has 4 words.

    That’s why it’s important to write things down!

    harmony
    hides
    in
    havoc

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    aesthetic
    without
    rigor
    is
    nothing

    5WP as a math problem.

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    vibration
    animates
    all
    under
    heaven

    Inspired by the occasional reading of old Chinese philosophy. The piece felt a bit dry after graphing, so I added splatters. Ideally the page would be energized by the graphs themselves, but I need a lot more practice with brush cursive. Until then, I’ll shamelessly rely on gratuitous noise.

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    11/28

    abstract,
    there is nothing else

    I love using the heavy black brush over busy backgrounds. But that leaves the problem of getting the other four words readable within the noise.

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    aequaminitas
    just one last snack

    This one flowered into a bunch of variations, which is fitting for this 5WP.

    Aequaminitas means equanimity. I first took it as the disappointment that always comes after completing a piece (even though I quickly recover by jumping into the next piece). Playing with the wording led to the realization that calligraphy always tantalizes the practitioner that the next graph will perfectly match the vision.

    This hobby is such a tease!

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    gratitude
    now
    is
    a
    present

    At first I tried using the words as ribbons but my script skills weren’t good enough. I settled with a flat brush and then going white over it. Turned out to be a nice recall of the first word of Callivember 2024, with “flow” written in mastic.

    11/1

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    It’s been sixty-one days of a part time job where the pay is a pile of (hopefully) pretty papers and approximately one thousand digital hearts. And the skill to do it better. I’ve often told young architects you get paid in money and experience. In this case, $0 and a ton of experience.

    Moving forward, I’m going to keep hitting the drawing board, but I’m not grinding to produce something every day. The holiday season is here, gotta wrap presents, bang out Christmas cards, tidy the abode, only to jump into tax season.

    But as with all my hobbies, we’ll see where it goes. Hopefully it keeps growing as a meditative creative practice, but history predicts a slow fade as soon as something else catches my fancy.

    In the meantime, I have a growing backlog of Inktober 52 pieces so there’s enough to

    Cya next week!

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    PS

    12/1

    five
    dandelions
    in
    a
    row

    While working on aequaminitas I was inspired to graph a dandelion. As always, it took a few tries to get the composition right. As my habit, I took a few extra shots for good measure (I’m rarely happy with the results at the table). The morning after, I had a hard time picking the best version so I chose them all (using multiply layers on the opacity function). This turned a single word into a 5WP.

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    PPS

    11/30

    three
    sprawled out
    reading worms

    The kids and I spent the other night reading books, all sprawled out in the bedroom. Mama would have yelled at us if she walked in before I fell asleep. The next morning, I found out that a Substack buddy just reached 333 subscribers, celebrating with this song. The coincidence was too much, I had to celebrate too.

    This first attempt was written on an 8-year old printout of Toni Morrison’s essay No Place for Self-Pity, No Room for Fear.

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    That version was good enough to post in the moment, but I was unsatisfied with the composition and wording. It was originally oriented as a horizontal piece, but given the power of the background words, I pulled it vertical, but it felt off. Plus, I had gotten too cute by choosing “reading” instead of the obvious “book” worm.

    So I went back to the drawing board.

    three
    sprawled out
    book wurms

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