GRIZZLY PEAR

written snapshots

Category: Bits

  • Keep making mistakes!

    I’ve mentioned it before but thought this is worth repeating. I’m no fan of AI, but it’s appearance has unlocked my acceptance of imperfection.

    It wasn’t a coincidence that I started drawing after two dormant decades after Dall-E and Midjourney hit the mainstream in 2022.

    Before this happened, I would have guessed that generative AI images would finally smothered the last embers of my interest in drawing.

    Instead, I was freed from the self induced constipation of accuracy. I picked up the pen and started laying ink on paper again.

    They’re rough. There’s no undo button. No edit function. All you can do is start over, again. Try not to mess it all up with the last few lines on the page.

    These aren’t perfect, but I can vouch for their provenance. My hand was there when each molecule of dye nestled into the fibers of these pages.

    Here’s to many experiments in this year of the Dragon!
     

    I wasn’t super happy with the purple, but it was “good enough”…until I messed up the last two letters of this page. Lettering in ink demands full attention. The simplest mistake can be catastrophic.
    This was on a good track, and then I got cute with his beard and ruined the dragon. Again, the last thing killed the whole page.
    At this point, I didn’t even try to outline the dragon. I didn’t have energy to try a fourth time. I kind of like how the dragon is a bit atmospheric on the page…but that might be a total rationalization for wimping out.
  • Post to Substack

    This time last year, there was a magical moment on Post.news as people escaped the chaos of the recently acquired Twitter.

    It was a wonderful holiday season as we enjoyed and explored each others’ art. I rediscovered my drawing hand, which had atrophied from decades of fear. They encouraged me to keep exploring poetry. Post freed me to make bad art, which might not sound special, but it’s eons ahead of doing nothing.

    I’m not sure what went wrong (maybe their focus on news and opinion?) but the magic dissipated in the early months of the new year. I miss those folks, but most of them have also moved on, and I don’t have time to be online everywhere.

    Fortunately Substack stepped in to fill the void. This community has been generous with encouragement and relentlessly inspiring with the endless publishing of amazing work. It’s a place to stretch and play.

    When I joined Post last Thanksgiving, I took a photo of our freshly reinstalled Christmas tree to be the banner image of my user account (it’s still there). This morning, that tree is back up as we enter into another holiday season.

    What will the new year bring? Who knows. Maybe I’ll actually bang out some good art. Whatever’s. I’ll settle for sharing more bad art. A second year of making would be an accomplishment in this topsy-turvy world.

    In the meantime, thanks for the company; let’s hope this party lasts a bit longer.

  • ~600! (on Post)

    It took three months between milestones this time.

    This long interval reflects my shift from hanging out on Post to Substack Notes.

    Post is a better feed experience — I love the variety.

    But the newsletter integration at Substack is the “killer app” that kept my attention there. My major goal this year was to make a dent in the pile of old blog drafts and Substack is a better platform for that endeavor.

    But things might be shifting, now that I’ve signed up for auto posting from the RSS feed. It effectively lets me schedule posts for Post and this place has always been a bit more interactive for me. (Until this week, it was essentially impossible hard to follow anyone on Substack Notes without Subscribing to their newsletter, so the circles there are small and extremely top heavy.)

    It will be interesting to see how these Social Media Wars play out, even as I try to reduce my time on digital feeds (though I’ve recently discovered Pinterest as a great resource for visual inspiration). I’ve made a dent in my publishing backlog but it will take some effort to clear the decks and I want to spend more time sketching and reading books.

    The internet is a tricky beast. In the past month I might have spent more time shopping for fountain pens than pushing any of those priorities. Perusing virtual shelves, watching youtube videos, and planning purchases are great hacks at making you believe you’ve done something while accomplishing nothing.

    So I’ve made a resolution to stop shopping for the rest of the year. I’ve got a few toys in the mail and I bet that “necessities” will pop up to open my wallet. But no more discretionary browsing!

    Here’s to another fresh start to an old year!

    Blue ink sketch of a hand holding a fountain pen
  • 500!

    So I hit half a thousand.

    I hear you’re cheating on Post!

    As some of y’all might have noticed, I’ve dipped my toe into Substack. So here’s a comparison of the platforms to celebrate this big round number.

    When I was at Berkeley, I hung out with the art majors. We always felt there was a divide between the East Bay folks who did wacky things and the San Francisco snobs who made boring high art.

    That’s Post and Substack.

    Over here are folks who are experimenting and playing, picking up the stray tip. Out there is a polished crowd, with their paid subscription income streams.

    Why on earth did I sneak out across the bay to check out those people?

    Well, you get tired of living in a dingy warehouse where it looks like the landlord is more interested in side projects other than the shit that you care about.

    We’ve been waiting for comment notifications for half a year. And yeah, that comment count bug in April broke me.

    What’s it like out there with the white wine sippers?

    They got a clean interface. And their notification system actually works.

    But damn, they are really geared towards newsletters. It’s possible to follow someone on Substack Notes without subscribing to their newsletter, but it’s not obvious.

    More problematic than an overstuffed email inbox, it’s almost impossible to get traction as a small account. You think things have gotten quiet here? Try saying anything out there unless you’re responding to someone else. Substack doesn’t have an “explore feed”, so the only way anyone might see your comments is to either build a big subscription base first or to hope than an author looks at their “My Subscribers” tab and notice your comment among the scores of other comments to sift through.

    Don’t get me wrong, the authors at substack are all super nice and welcoming. But it doesn’t feel great to know that anything you say won’t get engagement unless you’re actively piggybacking on someone else. (Then again this comparison might be my Post privilege speaking as an early beta user here).

    From what I can tell, the Substack crowd is super focused on the craft of writing (not surprising since it’s a newsletter subscription platform), and of course there is plenty of politics cause that’s the new established religion of our democracy. But I miss the wide variety of art and photography that I find my follow here on Post. I hope it’s there on Substack, but I haven’t found out yet.

    Still, Substack is one helluva platform for newsletters, so my recent dalliance has gotten me writing regularly again and finally make some progress my “year of catching up”.

    So where next?

    I sure as hell ain’t going to a place that is run by the current or former CEO of Twitter. If I’m doing pro-bono content creation, it’s not going to be in the service of either type of fucking incompetence.

    Structurally, I prefer micropayments over the long term commitments of a subscription economy. As one might guess from the way I’ve framed the comparison, I’m fond of the Post crowd that has coalesced in the past six months. But there’s a lot of work that needs to be done, and I’ve lost confidence that my priorities are the platform’s priorities.

    That leaves me with writing on my home blog and cross posting to both Substack and Post. I don’t mind cutting and pasting once, but more than that is unsustainable, especially if I include the distracting subconscious tug to check notifications on multiple platforms.

    But hell, I’ll keep it up for another week or two.

    Once I hit late May, I should a difficult decision.

    In the meantime, let’s keep this party going, shall we?

    On to 600!

  • Go make a portfolio!

    With all the calls and emails I’ve fielded over the past two years, this week was the first time that someone looked at my online portfolio before contacting me. (LinkedIn recruiters are shockingly lazy!)

    The opportunity wasn’t a good fit, but we had a great conversation, and I learned about an exciting position to share with younger architects.

    ~

    My portfolio is a simple WordPress site with the Twenty Fourteen template and these plug-ins:

    • Disable Comments
    • Fourteen Colors (to change the colors in the template)
    • Really Simple SSL
    • SSL Insecure Content Fixer
    • WP Meta and Date Remover

    If this looks like too much, remember the imperative is to have a portfolio. Use a free site builder. (The creative director that I met had their work on Behance.)

    ~

    I’m a paranoid employment prepper. I graduated into the dotcom bust of 2001 and finished my masters in 2008. An online portfolio is an essential piece in my professional go-bag (along with a current resume, LinkedIn account, and preprinted work samples).

    More than forestalling doom and gloom and compiling old work, building a portfolio signals where you want to go.

    It forces you to write.
    Writing makes you think.

    I built this iteration in 2020. Amidst the global chaos, it was salutary to appreciate my career and ponder the future. As always, the process is more than the final product.

    Go make a portfolio!
    You’ll get more than a portfolio.

  • Monday Night Music

    A few months ago, I started sharing a song on youtube every Monday on Post.News

    I just transferred the archives back here onto Grizzly Pear under its own WordPress Category.

    I’m also tracking it on Youtube as its own playlist.

    At the start of the year, I also culled my subscriptions. Youtube is an amazing platform … and incredible timesuck. I also blocked channels from the recommendation algorithm, especially the ones with entertaining videos.

    In making Youtube boring, the algorithm was freed to unearth richer content. The latest random viral video pales against all the musical output that’s being shared at scale.

    Youtube may be the best music provider on the internet, you just have to get rid of all the other videos.

  • 402 (on Post.news)

    It’s fitting that this centennial post doesn’t land on a ’00 because I rePosted right past the landmark this morning.

    It’s been crazy busy at work for the past month. Good busy, but it takes a toll on creative output outside of work. (And inside work too!)

    Hopefully things will slow down in a month.

    In the meantime I’ve been happy finding (and sharing) the cool things everyone else are making. I’ve been using RP’s as bookmarks. Before posting, I enjoyed a quick stroll through through the recent past.

    I hope to return to a half-half equilibrium between original posts versus sharing other people’s work, but that might be after the next centenary.

    ~

    On Post in general, it feels that this place is going through a lull.

    The platform is still young, but no longer new. The limitless promise has worn off so the rough edges have become irritants.

    When are we going to get global notifications on comments? How much longer for lists! Why does rePosting something send me back to the top of the feed? Ugh, three columns. Bugs!

    I know, #StillinBeta! It helps to feel that management cares. Hopefully the doldrums are just a phase as it matures into a richer platform.

    It’s still a great crowd here. And I’ll be here as long as y’all are here.

    Here’s to more 00’s!

    ~

    Though you never know…which is why I believe everyone should keep their own website as an archive beyond of the whims of others…like here!

  • A year in 5 weeks!

    Hmm what big thing happened in the closing weeks of of 2022?

    Oh yeah! Of course!

    It has been an indulgent five weeks after I was let into this garden the Wednesday before Thanksgiving. I was genuinely excited when I got the invite email. I should have been even more excited, if I had known what we would do together as a group.

    With that, let me indulge in five #SundayShares of old posts, #PostTips and #PostProjects

    The Ghost of Old Year’s Past

    1. This pancake photo might not seem like much, but I’ve always been self conscious about my deficiencies as a photographer. This photo reminded me that I enjoy shooting #Texture and gave me confidence to make shareable images with a camera. One day, I’d love to be great at street or landscape, but I’ll leave those efforts for another year.
    2. I’ve always wanted to start drawing again, but my fear of inaccuracy had perennially constricted my gut. After joining Post, I wanted to see more hand drawing on Post and realized I needed to do my part. My hand was a convenient model which that morphed into a series the shaping ASL manual alphabet. The project clicked at “D” when I paired the sketch with a silly sentence. It’s so great when an iterative project crystalizes into something that feels just right. Even though I’m fan of quitting early and often, I’m also a huge proponent of repeating something until the universe gives a clear go/no-go.
    3. I posted notes on Honey, I Shrunk the Kids early one morning right after they released the feature showing who liked your Post. For a few minutes @noam was the only person who liked this Post. Hell yes, I have a screen shot.
    4. This may be getting extra-recursive, but I wanted to reshare this #SundayShare of the greatest honor of my career. Fuck cancer.
    5. I’ve been doing these Penny Delights on my blog for half a year. It’s a joy to share them with y’all!

    The Spirit of #PostTips today

    1. @adrianwright gave us two great mottos. “Grace is my default posture here.” Let’s keep it that way.
    2. This hack won’t be of much use after the Post Team rolls out their Lists and Global Notification features, but in the meantime, I been using my web browser’s bookmark folder for tracking favorite accounts, including @ mentions of myself (…/topics/<INSERTusernameHERE>)
    3. This might be just me, but please consider doing “Quick RePost” if you’re not adding substantive commentary. I believe a simple compliment is better added to the original Post’s comment section — it keeps the conversation centered on the original Post and the original Poster has a better chance to see and respond. This habit will also help keep following feeds clean if/when they start combining Quick Reposts into a single entry.
    4. I’m ashamed to admit it, but I used to dismiss #AltText as digital virtue signalling. After watching professional creatives studiously adding alt text to each of their images, I realized that I was the jackass. This the best aspect of Post culture — good peer pressure to make things better.
    5. Adrian’s second great comment was “Building a brand new community doesn’t easily lend itself to being a spectator sport…” There’s gonna be twists and turns in the new year. We’ll chat and moan about it. But ultimately, its most important to for each of us to make Post by making Posts!

    Dreams of Posts to come

    1. My blog has had two long running efforts “Notes on my Consumption” and “Written Snapshots”. I’ll keep sharing this #DailyWriting here.
    2. I’m going to finish my alphabet hand #Sketch series. I’d like to continue the #Texture photos. Maybe start a series on “boring architecture”. I wonder if my appropriation of the Tarot will last more than a couple of weeks — I have no idea what I’m doing!
    3. I’m a big fan of #SundayShare. It’s a fun excuse to dig into my archives.
    4. Are there other fun hashtag out there? @annasomeday came up with #WeekendWeirdness. @taratrudel just proposed #ComfortZone. @nolahaynes started #ClubGoodVibes. I’ve joined @allegrastein‘s #dailywriting crew. It will be fun to explore with other #PostCreatives like @jpdubois as these organic initiatives pop up.
    5. Finally, a negative goal: Stop wasting time on the meta-conversation. I already know who’s good and who’s naughty. Gossip is juicy but pseudo-fun steals time from making Posts!

    Unfortunately, it’s not all sunshine heading into 2023. I’m going back into the office after next week, re-inserting commute hours back into my routine and eroding my spare time.

    And to be honest, I’m a fickle person when it comes to hobbies. There is a legit chance that this Post might mark my peak on this platform.

    If so, I will be forever grateful to Noam and the Post team for an amazing year in five weeks.

    But let’s hope we’ll have many great weeks of sharing together.

    Maybe even years!

  • ± 100 Posts!

    a novice reads the I Ching

    How shall I consider 100 Posts?

    63:3 to 3

    Heading into our third weekend together, this will be my 100th post. (Technically I hit it earlier, but I deleted a few stray Posts along the way.)

    I pick up — and drop — hobbies with alacrity. I wish I weren’t so fickle, but I’m not the only one. There are many conflicting pulls on our time. Doing one means diminishing another, so I cycle through my recreations.

    Over the past two decade, we’ve seen social media platforms rise and fall. Glittering potential dissolving into pernicious squabbling. A brilliant dawn fades into tragedy.

    Will this be an apex or a milestone? I don’t know. If it’s near the top, then early gratitude for these magical 16 days. If the latter, then I look forward to many more Posts together.

    ~

    63. After Completion 既濟
    (water over fire)

    Success in small matters. Good fortune in at the beginning. But things might end in chaos. Equilibrium on a knife’s edge, calamitous disorder on both sides. Water over fire, steam gives power but fraught with danger. With the wrong attitude completion leads to decay. Practice constancy.

    Changing Line 3
    (yang becomes yin)

    Conquer demon territory. Establish a bastion in the borderlands. It will take capable leadership and persistence. Three years. A bold initiative will become a protracted campaign. Employ people of character. The work will exact a brutal toll. A petty man will lose it all.

    3. Difficulty at the Beginning 屯
    (water over quake)

    Life grows through the abyss. Great potential is attainable with good character. Be adaptable and dynamic, as clouds and thunder. Birth is a treacherous moment. Associate with noble people.

    ~

    Good start, don’t get cocky.
    Victory is attainable at great cost.
    Shape order from chaos with good company.

  • Post.news, 2022

    We’ve spent the past decade watching our hopes for social media fade into a dystopian hellscape.

    With lists, I had wrangled Twitter into being a decent source of information, but it remained an awful place for discussion.

    Then a man-child swooped in and to put it out of its misery. The chaos was entertaining for a couple of weeks before it got old. Relying upon the latest outrage for a dopamine addiction isn’t edifying entertainment.

    In this wake, @noam stepped into the void. It’s still in beta, the user base is still small, and my 24k new best buddies are still friendly.

    Maybe it will change for the worse. Or slide into irrelevance. Rational odds are for one or the other.

    But maybe not. For the first time in a while, social media comes with hope.

    Between the election results and Post.news, it’s been a good November. Here’s to many more.

    Happy Thanksgiving.