GRIZZLY PEAR

written snapshots

Category: Life

  • One night

    During a road trip throughout the southwest, I stayed in a hostel in Albuquerque.

    That evening I met a guy from Alaska who pulled out his banjo and played a few songs on the porch while we sat around and chatted the night away.

    Given my fondness for bluegrass, maybe I would have picked up my own banjo eventually, but I’m certain I needed a catalyst to that leap.

    Even though I haven’t done a ton with the instrument over the years, those moments I’ve had with the instrument can be attributed to that one night.

  • Higher order creatures

    It’s not an original thought, but it keeps crossing my mind while playing with the kids as they are endlessly fascinated with inexplicable things.

    I wonder what higher order creatures think of us.

    The must find us adults quite amusing watching our sophisticated TV shows and lusting after our grown up toys.

    And I’m certain they really find us quite amusing when we throw our big tantrums.

    And yet it’s all 100% real to us.

    I wonder if there’s any way for us to detach and temporarily become such creatures, so we can get out of our own heads for just a moment.

  • My Pens

    As an architect I’ve always been picky about my writing tools.

    As a draftsman, I started using 2H lead, but learned a lighter touch and transitioned to H lead for my line work. For my lettering I always used HB lead, which Staedtler Mars discontinued during that stint and caused a minor panic, but we bought enough to last me thorugh to leaving for graduate school. And yes Staedtler Mars was a better lead than Alvin.

    I also have picked up a few fancy fountain pens over the years, but ultimately they were too scratchy and have not been used.

    I appreciate the fine points of rollerball pens, but I don’t like the fact they can get cloggy.

    And the micro fine points of razors are nice for about half a day until they get frayed under my heavy hand, at which point they are not at all pleasant to use.

    But my tool of choice is the Papermate Flair pen. It’s a finely crafted writing tool that is cheap enough I can have copies all over the place and feel no pain when it runs out of ink or when one is lost. With a plethora of colors, I can make multiple layers of notes on a single sheet of paper. The felt tip runs smoothly on any type of paper. The point is fine enough to make good notes, but blunt enough to degrade gracefully. It is in short, my perfect pen.

  • Micromanaging

    It’s generally considered a bad term, but its the secret weapon for extreme ownership. Jocko Willink doesn’t mention it in his books, but he has brought it up a few times in podcast, and I’ve found it a useful concept.

    If you exercise extreme ownership on a project, then you are taking ownership over the performance of your subordinates. As such, what are your tools for making sure they do the job, especially if they aren’t measuring up?

    First and foremost, you have to make sure your expectations and standards are clear. If the objective is not clear, then how can they make the mark?

    If the direction is clear, then you need to resort to micromanaging, working with your colleagues step by step until you’ve built up the trust they can do it right. I guess you can also call it coaching or training, but ultimately you need to get hands on until you can step back and given them a level of freedom as professionals.

    Funny thing, this same two step process also works with your superiors. If they are the one holding you back from performing your task, you need to ask lots of questions to clarify the objective, and if it’s still not clear, you need to ask questions in detail so you can make sure you are meeting their expectations.

    The process is simple, the hard part is doing it in a way that keeps the team motivated and doesn’t suck all the initiative out of the room.

  • Twenty years ago

    I was a sophomore in college. I had completed my second studio and was embarking on a three semester detour into visual studies at the south wing of Wurster Hall, starting with ED101A with Tony Dubovsky.

    It feels like yesterday and a lifetime ago.

    I wonder what happened to that angsty kid who chain-smoked cigarettes, listened to loud music, and slept under the studio desk because it was less of a commute than going home.

    I’d like to think he’s still there, hiding under the respectable facade of a state worker, living in the burbs. Or maybe the suburban drone was the true kernel deep inside that bohemian two decades ago.

    Or maybe it’s both. Life is funny that way.

  • Culling the herd

    Every year or so, I end up going on a binge unsubscribing newsletters and facebook groups (I don’t use other social media platforms). 

    During these exercises, my favorites are never at risk and the spammy ones have no chance of surviving.  But the tough ones are those which always seemed interesting but don’t often get clicked.

    For those, I go through one or two copies of the newsletter and if there isn’t something that catches me, I unsubscribe. A decision is made on a whole body of work based on one or two samples.

    Fortunately nothing is permanent in the internet age, but it’s still a daunting thought.  You only get so many shots at someone’s attention and then it’s gone.

  • Home at the Supermarket

    During our last visit to Los Angeles, my son had fallen asleep in the car seat, but it was too hot to stay in the vehicle.  So we all went into the supermarket and I sat in the corner with the boy, while my wife, daughter, and mother in law shopped for dried goods you can’t find in Vegas.  When they came back, I went to the back of the store to use the restroom before commencing the long drive home.

    As I walked through the store, I was struck by how familiar the everything felt.  Admittedly, this Las Vegas is only a few hours from LA and we’re already full of California transplants.  But I don’t get this feeling at my neighborhood Smiths or Walmart.  I knew exactly how the bakery would look, and the produce section was stocked with everything I’d want.  The shelves were packed with goodies and I knew without looking that the far corner was stocked with live fish; the utterly decrepit restrooms were no surprise. I imagine these Asian supermarkets must feel as exotic to outsiders like when I visit one of the local Mexican markets that are quietly repurposing the older, smaller supermarket shells abandoned by the Kroger and Safeway in their quest for fancier, larger facilities.

    I grew up in the 80’s, but I was partially insulated from the homogeneity of popular culture because my dad didn’t let us have a TV nor go to movies.  However, living in the suburbs, we could not miss that the world around us was dominated by a different culture, especially since we did not go to a Chinese church.  Similarly, when we moved to San Jose, we did not end up in an Asian enclave.  While I did not learn the theoretical construct of “other” till grad school, we lived it throughout our childhoods.

    I remember the excitement when Ranch 99 opened up a supermarket in an old shell space near our part of town.  Martin Yan came for a packed demonstration during the grand opening celebrations.  Like any proper supermarket, it had a live fish section, but more importantly to my sister, dad, and me, it had a legit snack section.  The unique tangerines and lychees in the produce aisle were delightful and we could now conveniently get all the junk food we wanted without a half hour drive to Cupertino.  My dad quickly came up with a rule that we could each only pick out one item per visit, lest we eat ourselves to oblivion.

    During college, Ranch 99 opened up their own complex in the nearby suburb of Richmond.  I didn’t realize it then, but they were playing with this new typology in several locations.  Unlike a traditional strip center where all the stores faced the parking lot, this was a small indoor mall with the Ranch 99 supermarket as the anchor tenant surrounded by small shops and services.  Aside from the restaurants, I never patronized any of the small shops, but it quickly became part of my landscape.  I grew at home entering these little asian islands filled with tenants displaying familiar unreadable characters on their walls.

    After Katrina, Houston was threatened with an even more ferocious storm named Rita.  She veered north, so all we got was a windy night with scattered rains while hunkered down at the school.  The morning after, my buddy from Hong Kong and I decided to make a food run and invited some folks to come along.  One of our classmates questioned whether anything would be open, but we knew. The weather was gorgeous as we drove through the eerily quiet streets with empty sun drenched shopping centers.  As we neared the Chinatown strip, our instincts were proven correct at the first Chinese supermarket plaza, the parking lot was packed!  The shelves were barren, but they were open for business and we all had nothing better to do than to visit, shop, and eat.

    A few months ago, I was chatting with my coworker over lunch.  We veered off of sports and started talking about food and cooking.  I rattled off the names of the local Mexican chains, La Bonita, Marianas, Cardenas, and Marketon.  His eyes opened wide and he smiled. He’s a single guy who doesn’t cook, but we both knew that outside of visiting his house, or his mamma’s kitchen, I had come as close as one could to visiting his world.

    As my kids grow up in the bourgeois world of professionals in an suburban city, I’m certain they will be no strangers to the endless columns of unforgiving fluorescents at Walmart and the high blacked out ceilings at the Whole Foods.  They will know you need to get sodas and chips in bulk at Costco, and you can get some cheap tacos and agua frescas at La Bonita.  But I can’t help but think their home will end up being my home, filled with strange scripts, exotic fruits, cheap plastic stools, live fish, and lingering odor in the air.  It’s not just a place where we buy things we can’t get elsewhere, but also our most intimate space outside of our homes. The supermarket is our world is on full display for anyone who cares to visit.

  • A wider view of the world

    As an designer I’ve always been a bit of a lost soul. I have my opinions of course, and I enjoy visiting works in person, but I’ve never derived any great pleasure from looking at architecture in books or magazines.

    Instead, I’ve gotten my aesthetic kicks from novels, short stories, and comics. Akira and Sandman are my epic lodestars. Calvino and Borges are on my Mount Rushmore.

    Or even wider, I’d rather frail on the banjo or toot on the harmonica. And lately I’ve been geeking out on bread. I did have a two year run of playing into architect stereotype and being into photography, but that is countered by my lifelong affair with boardgames.

    I doubt such random interests have been good for my career, either professionally or academically, but I hope they have made me a more well rounded person.

    When I was in college, I used to assert that everything was worthy of study since everything feeds into architecture. I am no longer so bold to make such an assertion, but I still hold out hope that all the time chasing these random trails do feed back into the work. I’m not so sure how, but one can hope right?

  • 1929

    I just saw a meme that brought up the fact that Martin Luther King, Anne Frank, and Barbara Walters were all born in 1929.

    It boggles the mind how much the world has changed in the past 90 years. As the meme says, we feel these people are from different eras, but not really.

    Similarly, the Civil Rights era feels like forever ago, but not in context. Rosa Parks’ protest was in 1955, twenty four years before I was born. Twenty four years ago from today, I was a sophomore in high school.

    If taking the PSAT’s felt like yesterday, then the civil rights era only two and a half days ago!

  • Jumping ahead too fast?

    I’ve been reading and listening a lot to Seth Godin, the marketing guru / daily blogger. After all he’s the one who got me on this 3+ month blogging kick.

    However, I wonder if some of his thoughts are for higher level stuff while I’m still trying to get my own craft locked down. Between the new gig (which uses a lot of old skills but still feels fundamentally different), and the fact I still haven’t gotten the work / family / exercise practice down, there’s some fundamentals I need to work on.

    Even so, I think there’s a value to looking out past the horizon. I’ve always been a proponent of slow and steady growth in the profession, but also of constantly strategizing for the future.

    Maybe delusions of grandeur aren’t so bad, as long as you remember it’s for the future and you don’t assume it’s happening today, right now, right now.